Anniversaries are dates on the calendar that have significance.  They mean something special to the one who holds the date dear to their heart.  We celebrate anniversaries for weddings, relationships, and time at our job.  So what happens when those dates are not so positive?  When seen or remembered, they impose fear into our lives.  They serve as those trigger points that I meantioned in a previous post.

So, I’m sitting at Church on Sunday and they are going through the announcements.  When they adverstised the annual womens’ conference, I immediately opened the window for fear to come in for a visit.  If my body language could talk, it would have uttered the word “ugh”!  Last year at that time, I experienced an appendicitis.  One experience that caused me great pain and one I don’t want to live through again!

So then as if that trip down memory lane was not enough, my mind wanted to make a pit stop at the fretful day in March that cost me my job…Ugh again!  I found myself in self doubt mode and feeling a piece of that pain all over again. 

But once again, God (always proving his faithfulness), came through and gave me an answer to an age old question that has its fair share of revisiting in my mind.  Why does all this stuff keep happening to me?  While reading Beth Moore’s new book So Long Insecurity, a certain passage stopped me dead in my tracks (thoughts).  She said, “We can give ourselves to purpose.  If we cooperate, good will indeed come and glory will come to God.  Otherwise, He would have forbidden the tragedy.” 

In looking back on those times in my life, it’s time to let them go.  They had their purpose and something is going to evolve from all this.  It may have happened already or it’s lined up in my future.  I still am unsure if it has happened yet, but I know that it will.  I am hoping in all this, that I can stop fretting and dreading those painful anniversaries, but actually celebrate what was gained. 

Psalm 112:7-8 says, “She (inserted for he) will have no fear of bad news:  her heart is steadfast, trusting in the Lord.  Her heart is secure, she will have no fear; in the end she will look in triumph on her foes.”  If you find yourself staring at the calendar of your life and wanting a do over, remember it happened for a reason and that good is waiting to find you!

Love in Christ,
Nichole