“Any change, even a change for the better, is always accompanied by drawbacks and discomforts.” – Arnold Bennett
Yesterday’s revelation still has me a bit rattled. For some reason the tears have now turned into a bit of agitation, and I seem to lack patience with others. This agitation refrains me from extending grace and mercy to random encounters or to relationships that is so needed.
I’m a thinker, that is what I do, but I could not get my arms around this feeling of agitation. Where was it stemming from? Was it the truth that I just uncovered or more to the fact that I still don’t measure up? The fact that there is still improvements to be made.
But part of growing is about changing and making improvements, right? So why is it so hard? And why do I put so much pressure on myself to be perfect?
“The point is, somewhere inside, you have an idea of who you should be and it is at war with who you are.” – Emily Freeman
A war within my mind. I cannot embrace where I am because I am always looking at where I am not. This is a battle where I need to surrender. This constant turmoil will rob me of my peace and my joy.
“And I am certain that God, who began the good work within you, will continue his work until it is finally finished on the day when Christ Jesus returns.” Philippians 1:16 (NLT)
Just as this scriptures says, I will always be a work in progress. This internal work will continue until He returns. And my part is to live for today, not tomorrow, and allow His grace to see me through.