I think. At times I over think. When Mr. Sandman should be bringing me a dream, I lie awake thinking of fractions, equations, and how great it would be if M&M’s could cure cancer (I know, I give a lot of power to M&M’s, but they have provided me great joy during stressful times).

So why is that our minds cannot shut off? Why do we complicate things in decision-making and what goes on in the world? Wouldn’t life be so much easier if we could simply pick petals off of a flower to make important decisions or rationalize things??

He loves me. He loves me not.

-Photo credit – Northern Star Photography

Take for instant my last relationship. We both wanted different things. He chalked it up to us having different values. Trust me if the values were different, I would not have stayed around for 2 years.

• I wanted to be married. He did not.

Let’s consider friendships and other non romantic relationships. You do your best to do right by someone, but let’s face it, we are not perfect. We have bad days and we make mistakes. But we complicate things with guilt, second guessing, and worrying what other people think.  The bottom line is I will do my best to do right by you or if I’m wrong, I will try to amend the situation.

• Love me. Love me not.

I’m tired, mentally exhausted, and want my brain to shut off.  I no longer want to think about fractions or dwell on why certain relationships are complicated/don’t work out.  Life should be simple, but it is not, and I don’t have the option of putting the petals back on and rearranging them for a better outcome. So, in my effort to reduce and simplify things, I have decided to adopt a black and white philosophy when it comes to thinking and making sense of things.

• It is what it is.
• You will fail or you will succeed.
• It will work out or it won’t.
• 2+2=4 not 5
• He loves me. He loves me not.

On a side note, the only grey I’ll consider entertaining is that which pertains to 50 Shades. 🙂