You have often heard, “becareful what you ask for”, but I think sometimes you should becareful what you pray for.  I think we pray for things but don’t consider the cost of what that prayer entails.   For months, I have been praying the Prayer of Jabez.  I prayed for God to bless me and enlarge my territory (increase my responsibility).  But I have quickly learned, there is a price to that enlargement.  

I have 3 working days left.  My company is dragging their feet about the hiring decision whether I will get the full time postion or not.  What hurts me the most is that they have no regards for my well being.  Why should they be concerned if I am able to find a new job, pay my bills, or have food on the table.  I mean, it’s not their responsibility or is it?

Through this whole experience, God’s been dealing with me about the regard for human life.  The more I suffer, the more my heart breaks for the wellbeing of another and another and another.  

Philippians 3: 10-11 says, “I want to know Christ—yes, to know the power of his resurrection and participation in his sufferings, becoming like him in his death, and so, somehow, attaining to the resurrection from the dead.”

Through my sufferings, I become more like Him.  I see with His eyes, with His heart and find love for humanity.