I will say that I am diligent when it comes to studying and seeking God’s word. In fact last night (which was a Friday night), I left perfectly good patio time with friends to come home and study. I have spent the last nine months listening to Joyce Meyer teaching Cd’s. I don’t have that big of a collection so I usually listen to them over and over. Right now, I am back on “God’s Timing” and today for some reason I chose the disc”Let God be God”. I have to admit it is still something I am not 100% comfortable with. If I was, then the chaos would no longer exist and the virtual roller coaster (my life) would stop.
As I was listening, I was reflecting back to that dreadful March day at school. It was the great fall of Nichole Cornelius. I’m sure God let out a big gasp just as everyone else that heard the humiliating story! God spoke to me and said, “You know, I knew this was going to happen. I knew you would reach your breaking point and the flesh would overpower your spirit. I had to take you there otherwise you would have been complacent right where you were at. You would have no desire to go to the next level because your dreams had been fulfilled. You would have continued on living right outside your Promised Land. You cannot live a life of complacency until you are where I want you to be.”
Isaiah 55:8-9 says, “I don’t think the way you think. The way you work isn’t the way I work.” I have to be thankful that His dreams for me outshine, outweigh any of those I have ever conceived in my head. For all that I have been through, there has to be a greater purpose for my life and believing is the ticket to get me to the other side.
Love in Christ,