A few months ago a “friend” said to me, “You need a man you can trust”. I knew he was implying that I could not trust him and needed to seek someone else. I really did not pay much to what he was saying because he tends to say things out of fear. I never gave too much thought to his words until now. The idea of trusting someone is what God has been dealing with me lately. It’s not that I need a man (here on earth) to trust; I need to trust God totally and completely. Trusting someone other than myself is something I choose not to do. It’s out of fear and the fact that I need to be in control.

Tomorrow, I return to work. My anxieties are starting to build. This shows you right there that I am not trusting God. I am not trusting that He will vindicate me, protect me, and give me the strength to fight the last days of my battle. 1 Peter 2:23 says, “When they hurled their insults at Him, He did not retaliate: when He suffered, He made no threats. Instead, he entrusted Himself to Him who judges justly.” If I’m ever going to see the other side of the mountain, I am going to have to trust that God knows exactly what He is doing and I am going to be more than fine. Everyday, I am going to have to take the step to trust. It will be a battle that I have to win!

Love in Christ,
Nichole