A friend of mine once told me that sometimes God makes us so desperate for what we want, that we will do the work He has planned for us. I know exactly what she was talking about. I desired a teaching job for over 2 years. I went on numerous interviews and was turned down everytime! My sister told me that God had to have a reason for all this disappointment. He seemed to close every door of opportunity that was presented to me. Looking back, I see that I would have accepted what ever job was presented, but He was not ready for me to do that. Those jobs were not what He had planned.


He had a special plan for me. A plan to restore hope in the lives of young children who come from broken homes and desperately need someone to believe in them. Somedays I wonder if I am that person…am I capable of such a task?!? There are days when they get the best of me and when I lose my composure. I cry more days than I laugh! I have tried quitting more times than I can count…still I go on! I have to believe that God knows what I can handle and gives me the strength to endure the environment I teach in. 1 Timothy 4:14-15 says, “Do not neglect your gift which was given to you through a prophetic message. Be diligent in these matters; give yourself wholly to them, so that everyone may see your progress.” I pray that someone will see my progress and that I may be a light in this world of darkness.